funny how everything can seem alright when you have something to do. if fact, you can even deceive yourself that you are not miserable for an incredibly long time when you have work. and then of course you finally finish the work and you can relax and then the whole world comes crashing down on you becuase suddenly you're allowed to breathe again. suddenly you're allowed to feel again. The human mind is amazing in it's ability to pretend. someitmes I'm amazed at the way I can simply put that two-sided mask back on again as easily as that. smiling on both outsides and insides, smiling at darkness and pretending it's light. or maybe, it's not funny at all. but at the moment it's all that keeps me sane.

one more take home exam to do and then I'm done!! aah!!! think I'll go take a shower and a nap before I start the exam :-p

I'm going to do an exam on four hours of sleep.. hee hee. went to bed at 3am and waking up at 7am.... this is going to be interesting. hopefully I'll make enough sense to write the essay :-p.

last major exam tomorrow. and then a take home paper to complete and then I'm done with exams. *sigh* for some reason I'm not doing as well as I would like.. and the problem is all the not doing well is borderline. which is irritating. I mean i don't mind so much if I suck at a class, the problem is that it could so easily have have been the other way...

I don't know why I like you. sometimes you remind me too much of someone I really shouldn't be trusting. but you see.. this time I'm not going to get burned. this time, I'll be able to let go. I'm not going to want anything besides what comes. I'll just be who you need me to be for a while. I refuse to get involved.

You're a Strawberry Daiqery! You're the person that everyone just wants to have sex with. Nothing more, nothing less

I'm a Strawberry Daiqery, discover your ALcoHoLiC personality!

What's up with that?? tell me it isn't true...

half an hour to a final.. why is there so much I still do not know?

*sigh*..

I don't have a type! it's amazing. i'm perfectly poised in the center of that test....

it scares me that people can possibly think they will not be happy unless they reach a certain goal. because that means life means nothing more than that goal then. and then.. what happens to everything else. maybe we're so busy looking for a certain kind of door that we completely missed all others. sometimes it takes an earthquake to make us realise that there is more than one thing in this world. I know you won't see this but J: I hope you find your happiness someday, and I hope that soon you realise that that goal will never keep you satisfied.

you know I hate to tell you this... but erm yeah if Emma Watson is Hermione.. she's a little underaged. esp for you...:-p no lolita complexes here..... and I actually thought draco is kinda good. he's meant to be that way I like the whole could be perfect little boy image except....

of course I'm right I'm always right....

well look at it this way. Little things are the joy that keeps you going even when you are depressed. You have to have that because life rarely works out perfectly so that you're always happy so for those days, months or years when you feel down, take joy where you can find it, in rain, ice cream, a smile or a word.

well actually being an empath is more like getting affected by other peoples' emotions and projecting emotions unto others so yeah it might not necessarily be a good thing...