For some reason blooger hasn't let me post notes on other people's blogs of late.. i wonder if it's the notes malfunction again.
On Brown:
I don't know whether to be happy or lonely now that I'm back in brown. On one hand, I love brown and i love the life here, and I love my friends here too. The classes are challenging and we somehow always find some time for some fun in the middle of it all. Unfortunately, on the other hand, it's also very alone. I think maybe living in the grad center has somehting to do with it. I have a large single, well large by brown standards in any case, but the concrete walls are definitely depressing, like being in solitary confinement. I also hate unpacking and packing and I think that may have somehting to do with it. My room is now messy and painfully empty. Sometimes I actually understand why some uni students go through hook-up after hook-up, it's easier and less work than maintaining a relationship and in return you get some company, some warmth, a little bit of joy in your life and a whole lot more things to do and someone to do them with. Sometimes I'm tempted to join them myself but the rest of me won't let me do that. Not that i'm against hook-ups or anything, i think i just won't let myself go into any relationship even a non-serious one without meeting someone that measures up to what i want and that is nigh impossible :-p
On Relationships:
And since I'm on that topic already, I suspect the reason why I'm waxing maudin on that topic is because everyone in my suite is attached lol. well barring Fire, but then she has her fair share of relationships just not a single formal serious one at the moment instead of my detached zen like state. not that I'm complaining of that state, lol. I admit I do get tired of playing the oldest sister all the time, but then I could never live with mess in my internal life. external yeah but having my internal life in a mess makes me suicidal.
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
Monday, January 26, 2004
I'm jetlagged and exhausted because it's the afternoon but have yet to do write my personal statement for one of the internships I'm applying for.. correction I'm only applying for one. I really need to apply for more but I'm so tired. I miss Japan. J, be glad you're not a junior. life sucks everything is so busy.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Friday, January 09, 2004
Realised that the bad thing about having my boxes arrive from japan is that.. does that mean my box has also arrived in the states? Damn. I kinda need to be there to pick it up :-p oops. ah well. nothing for it. just have to hope it takes longer to get to the us than to singapore. and that I'll be there to pick it up once I'm there :-p
spent the day lazing around at home and kinda packing today. lol. haven't been staying home much but I really really need to get all my errands run and start packing up.
spent the day lazing around at home and kinda packing today. lol. haven't been staying home much but I really really need to get all my errands run and start packing up.
Thursday, January 08, 2004
My boxes from Japan have arrived! that's way faster than I expected them :-p Nice. I like the Japan postal service. I think I'm suffering from lack of sleep from going out too much :-p but I really do wanna go out and party 'cept have precious little people to party with. *sigh* disadvantage of having everyone go to different school systems is that when you're out of school no one else is. I also need to start doing CNY shopping or face unceasing nagging. lol.
People have been really really nice to me all of a sudden. or maybe it's just struck me all of a sudden. And I'm not talking artificial nice or anything. I just mean unlooked for kindness from friends at brown who aren't close or anything because they're not the ones I live with. Cbear's been really nice and is offering to pick up my key and help me move in. and S volunteered to pick me up from the airport and that's really very sweet of them. Or maybe it's not that they have been very nice but that I never saw it coming, never expected that from them and so when it's offered it surprises me. Maybe I should expect more of my friends, or at least see more people as my friends :-p After all, they see me as one. I should trust more, no i mean expect more... I do trust them. it's complicated :-p
People have been really really nice to me all of a sudden. or maybe it's just struck me all of a sudden. And I'm not talking artificial nice or anything. I just mean unlooked for kindness from friends at brown who aren't close or anything because they're not the ones I live with. Cbear's been really nice and is offering to pick up my key and help me move in. and S volunteered to pick me up from the airport and that's really very sweet of them. Or maybe it's not that they have been very nice but that I never saw it coming, never expected that from them and so when it's offered it surprises me. Maybe I should expect more of my friends, or at least see more people as my friends :-p After all, they see me as one. I should trust more, no i mean expect more... I do trust them. it's complicated :-p
Sunday, January 04, 2004
I swear I would think better and be more organised with my blogs if I could work in my room in air-condition rather than out in the hall with the tv blaring and lots of back ground noise amid the heavy heat of singapore.
Anyway, two interesting things that i want to contrast about something I noticed yesterday while I was in Chinatown. Being the first day, there was quite a crowd.
The first observation was that singaporeans are so much less civilised than Japanese when it comes to common courtesy. Well, what made me draw this conclusion? I guess it was two main things, when getting on the mrt, people started pushing their way in before others could even get off the train, and not only that, but despite the fact that people had been waiting patiently at the sides of the lines, others would just push in front of those people in order to do the former. Ouch. And this example applies to getting on the escalator or walking in a crowd too. Singaporeans have no daily common courtesy.
The second thing I saw that completely redemmed singaporeans was when a tourist was trying to buy a ticket for the mrt and the machine wouldn't accept her money even though it was in sing dollars. A singaporean couple behind her in line ended up buying her the two tickets with their money because she didn't have the small change to change the note with them anyway. And they not only volunteered their help but completely waved aside her trying to pay them back. That kind of made my day. Especially because that's really not the kind of thing that would be seen everywhere and in singapore that could actually occur. It definitely wouldn't really happen in Japan despite their courtesy and niceness to tourists in general.
It's interesting to me, that there can be such contrasts between the occurences of everyday courtesy and random small acts of kindness. I mean one would assume they go together :-p
Anyway, two interesting things that i want to contrast about something I noticed yesterday while I was in Chinatown. Being the first day, there was quite a crowd.
The first observation was that singaporeans are so much less civilised than Japanese when it comes to common courtesy. Well, what made me draw this conclusion? I guess it was two main things, when getting on the mrt, people started pushing their way in before others could even get off the train, and not only that, but despite the fact that people had been waiting patiently at the sides of the lines, others would just push in front of those people in order to do the former. Ouch. And this example applies to getting on the escalator or walking in a crowd too. Singaporeans have no daily common courtesy.
The second thing I saw that completely redemmed singaporeans was when a tourist was trying to buy a ticket for the mrt and the machine wouldn't accept her money even though it was in sing dollars. A singaporean couple behind her in line ended up buying her the two tickets with their money because she didn't have the small change to change the note with them anyway. And they not only volunteered their help but completely waved aside her trying to pay them back. That kind of made my day. Especially because that's really not the kind of thing that would be seen everywhere and in singapore that could actually occur. It definitely wouldn't really happen in Japan despite their courtesy and niceness to tourists in general.
It's interesting to me, that there can be such contrasts between the occurences of everyday courtesy and random small acts of kindness. I mean one would assume they go together :-p
Thursday, January 01, 2004
lol. Good Morning Everybody. and Happy New Year to you.
Akemashite Omedetou gozaimasu. Kotoshimo yuroshiku Onegaishimasu.
This would be encoding except I'm too lazy to find the Japanese encoding function.
Anyway back to my thoughts last night.
On LOTR 3:
I think my favourite part must have been the ghost army. Just because skulls are cool. Or at least those ones are. I have to admit that I liked that arc much better than I liked the Frodo arc. Sam and Frodo def. got a bit on my nerves not because as sylfien says they're probably gay but just because I like my emotions understated rather than overstated. and the human arc had more of that. Less carrying on :-p no wonder my survey came out more male than female.
On apartment:
Now auditioning future roommates for apartment of our own sometime in future when I get a job.
I really want to move out. probably unsingaporean of me but I do. I want an apartment to call home. Fun fluffy roommates who share the same tastes in furnishing and expensive tastes lol. i admit that I go in for GOOD food. I also want a playstation whatever number it will be at. Maybe not that expensive but definitely not "normal gardenia bread" or walls ice cream :-p
It'll def. be good ice cream and good bread.
Yeah I admit that has to be a reason why I decided to be practical and not pursue art. I couldn't afford the lifestyle I want to live otherwise.
On resolutions for next year:
I never really believed in or made resolutions because they fade so easily. But I do have one for next year and that is to be more social at brown. I love my friends and I admit I am pretty social in asia but I really need to overcome the whole social state at brown and come out of my shell. maybe not as a social butterfly but just enough to socialise. well if i start throwing up next semester from the disgustingness of the people I actually have to talk to because of this resolution you'll know why :-p.
Akemashite Omedetou gozaimasu. Kotoshimo yuroshiku Onegaishimasu.
This would be encoding except I'm too lazy to find the Japanese encoding function.
Anyway back to my thoughts last night.
On LOTR 3:
I think my favourite part must have been the ghost army. Just because skulls are cool. Or at least those ones are. I have to admit that I liked that arc much better than I liked the Frodo arc. Sam and Frodo def. got a bit on my nerves not because as sylfien says they're probably gay but just because I like my emotions understated rather than overstated. and the human arc had more of that. Less carrying on :-p no wonder my survey came out more male than female.
On apartment:
Now auditioning future roommates for apartment of our own sometime in future when I get a job.
I really want to move out. probably unsingaporean of me but I do. I want an apartment to call home. Fun fluffy roommates who share the same tastes in furnishing and expensive tastes lol. i admit that I go in for GOOD food. I also want a playstation whatever number it will be at. Maybe not that expensive but definitely not "normal gardenia bread" or walls ice cream :-p
It'll def. be good ice cream and good bread.
Yeah I admit that has to be a reason why I decided to be practical and not pursue art. I couldn't afford the lifestyle I want to live otherwise.
On resolutions for next year:
I never really believed in or made resolutions because they fade so easily. But I do have one for next year and that is to be more social at brown. I love my friends and I admit I am pretty social in asia but I really need to overcome the whole social state at brown and come out of my shell. maybe not as a social butterfly but just enough to socialise. well if i start throwing up next semester from the disgustingness of the people I actually have to talk to because of this resolution you'll know why :-p.