I hate reinstalling everything and figuring out what documents i've lost and whether it's worth it to pay 80 bucks to save them. DAMN.

hey guys my computer crashed... again. second time in three years. I want to scream. so I won't be around for a while.

jon's leaving tomorrow morn. *sigh* oh well. it was a good visit :-p

two midterms today. I think I'm just passing time till spring break gets here

Jon's here for a visit :-p yay.

L.N. : lol I'm not saying a crush is love but more like they're sorta related. kinda like if I can't even get a random crush on anyone I suspect love is an impossibilty :-p

S.S: I don't get crushes anymore. lol not that I ever really did in the first place. But it's kind of sad. I must have grown so cynical that I can't even fall in love at first sight anymore. There's always this train at the back saying, he's probably a jerk.. and stuff like that :-p

I turn 22 today. *sigh* It's also snowing crazily outside so I won't be able to do anything on my birthday except stay home :-(. On the bright side, my exam's over and I got cake and presents :-p

Current music: Should I stay by Dreamz FM

I've recently discovered dreamz fm who after I did some research on them online are a Singaporean band. hmm. :-p I fell in love with their music after listening to this song. Other current music? Blue Water by Zard. I've been listening to a lot of Zard lately.

Today in Japanese class, we discussed a newspaper article that was reporting on the replacing all the alcohol vending machines in Japan with card operated ones within five years so that minors can't get hold of alcohol. The article was printed at least 8 years ago. Last i looked, coin operated beer machines were still all over in Japan. That I think, says it all about how serioiusly Japan takes underage drinking. :-p

Seriously speaking, I don't think underage drinking is such a problem compared to smoking in Japan. Almost everyone in Japan smokes. Seriously. I think the smoker to non-smoker rate must be at least 70 percent. It's kinda scary walking around in a crowd and hoping no one accidentally brushes against you holding a cigarette. Last semester when I was in Kyoto, they started an ad series to try and curb smoking esp. among youngsters but I don't think they're focusing on the health issues enough. Most people in Japan, esp. the youngsters, don't start smoking knowing what they're doing to their lungs.

Back to Alcohol though, it's actually interesting why the US has such a problem with underage drinking even though they have the strictest laws regarding drink - you can't drink till you're over 21. I suspect two reasons. One is that families in the US seldom drink. I mean most of us have drank sips of wine back home on special occasions or things like that and so we grow used to the idea of alcohol. It's not taboo or forbidden. Whereas in America, maybe underage drinking is such a big problem precisely because it's seen as a mark of rebellion, doing something that is forbidden. Someone else in class mentioned that because most europeans drink at home, by the time they're old enough to get alcohol, they know their own limits and thus problems such as alcohol poisoning and drunk driving don't arise. I wonder.
It would be nice to walk around in college without some random drunk guys spoiling my night :-p

I'll have to admit I'm starting to get unfaithful thoughts towards my blog... the reason? LJ has pictures. lol. yeah I go for the frills. But my blog is going to be 3 years old in october so it's been around pretty long. I guess I'm having loyaty issues. Stick with my faithful buddy or go for the pretty frills... decisions decisions. ;-p

I'm finally done with my paper. Not as good as I would have liked it to be but I realised somewhere halfway in that i had written on the wrong topic and needed to change it. *sigh* long story. I mean why on earth do chinese name their movements �����˶�and �����˶���They're so easily mistaken for each other.

I still have a ton of stuff due either tonight or tomorrow. But just a quick comment i guess.
On God:
I think everyone knows my views on god by now. I believe in God I just don't really believe in the church. I agree about the huge disparity between the old and new testament Gods, and I also think it's strange that at the same time there is a disparity, and the church admits it, there is also this idea that God is eternal and unchanging. Definitely a logical paradox. I would go to bible school to learn more and figure out more and work out all my problems and answers but even in church they keep telling me, you should have faith, or it's just because, or it's his big plan. and things like that. I suspect I'd get kicked out of bible college for asking questions.

I think that was where my huge disparity with the church began, because for them asking questions was a sign of disbelief or of doubt and for me it was a sign of faith of intelligence. I'd rather try and understand everything and work out all my problems with it than rely on blind faith because I've seen where that path leads.

SS, I think most of us are like that btw, finding your own church? maybe the reason why we don't have our own church is because our beliefs don't require us to have one. We believe in God but we don't believe in many of the stringent rules on behavior, we don't believe in running out to convert everybody on sight, why else do we need a church? For support on beliefs and for a community? We have that. Our friends are that who are, for the most part mostly like us with similar beliefs :-p Something to think about anyway.

Okay you guys are not going to get much of entries from me at least until i'm done with this stupid paper sometime tomorrow night. It's a paper on the May 4th movement in China and it's impact on China. (esp. in terms of the democracy wall) and the catch? it's in Chinese. *sigh* btw. I'm definitely the "really messed up in the head" type :-p)

Have an econ and the law exam tomorrow. concepts not enering my head to be understood/memorised. Actually I know the exam is going to be fairly easy which means everyone is going to do well which means I actually have to understand every single concept. that sucks. :-p I'm used to getting away with not knowing stuff. darned. oh well back to Kaldor and the edgeworth box.

There is NO WATER. That's really irritating. it's the second time this semester already. I can hear the work vans outside my window which means that a pipe prob. burst in the street again. AAARGH. it's really irritating.

I know this is going to strat turning into a food listing but I made fish with a sauce/topping of spinach and feta cheese :-p I like being creative with the materials at hand. Whether or not I cook tomorrow though depends on whether the water is actually back.

Haven't been blogging much lately but I'm really exhausted.
Good things today:
1. I cooked. Made Japanese curry which people who had it said was really good :-). Although I def. admit that it didn't take much effort on my part. I mean it's not like i have to measure the spices i need to put in or anything. Also have mashed potatoes from that I'm going to make into croquettes someday soon, in addition to enough curry to last for quite a while. That was in the afternoon. I was going to make dessert tonight by frying honey in wonton skins but then I got too exhausted.
2. I had my first community service session today. No wonder I was tired. the kids are a handful.
Bad things today:
1. I HAVEN'T TOUCHED MY BOOKS FOR ECON AND THE LAW EXAM YET. yeah that was a bit of early panicking lol. For the most part i find my subconcious dictates my pace of studying where my conscious mind panics. That's the scary part. Somewhere in the back of my head I know that I can get by without studying till like the morning of the exam or the night before and therefore that's the way I work. my conscious mind tells me that i should study so I sit there with the book or paper or whatever but literally stare at it and get no work done till the night before the exam. I need to brainwash my subconcious so I work harder. The problem is that my subconcious is right 90 percent of the time. I don't need to study. But what about the other 10 percent???