The Hanged man: major acarna card. Suspension with an imperative. I need to find myself but somehow that's what I've been trying to do the rest of my life so far. Or maybe I need to let go and see where that goes. Sometimes, letting go is harder than trying to do something.
The Amethyst: Hopeless Romantic, searching for a soulmate, opens the third eye.

I got these readings a week ago and still they linger in my mind a little. Not bothering me but just something to think about. I decided to just put the readings here. Seems like lately, I've had a lot to think about in my life and I guess on some level, I'm not quite ready to reconcile all this yet.

So i'm unreachable and going to be unreachable at least another week :-p... Actually I'm staying at Anne's and am only online now because I'm using the computer lab..

Saw two plays this week which are actually rather good. I think I miss being part of a production. Feeling like a gear in a machine and making something, making something work that is more than just what we put into it and somehow greater than ourselves. Persistance of vision. That was a line in the play I just came home from tonight. I think once upon a time, before I became a rootless dreamless creature to be blown about by the winds of fortune, or in my case, the winds of whatever creates fortune, I had that kind of a vision. Once upon a time, i had that kind of a vision about everything. Whatever I believed, I believed with a passion.

I suppose it's better really... to Not have the persistance of vision, in any case it's more comfortable, more practical, and infinitely more profitable. Sometimes, I still wish i believed in something, religion, academics, poetry, theatre.. just something. anything really. I guess that's why I drew the hanged man the other day which is a whole other story for another day and a different post.

I am DONE with my finals... now to pack. Lady J just informed me that the storage company is coming tonight instead of tomorrow as I orginally thought... *sigh* Aaargh. Time to madly pack

I had such a horrible interview. I've forgotten basic math, which he quized me on. I forgot how to do probabilities and am still unsure if I got that problem right.. which I think my friend is right and I probably got it wrong. Also on basic algebra and things like that. On the phone, pauses seem extremely wrong, so I somehow felt like I had to answer something, anything. As a result i think I answered 4 wrong answers before the right one and things like that. *sigh*

The second interview wasn't quite that bad. The third one was in Japanese. I've forgotten all my keigo. :-p I think that was possibly one of the worse series of interviews I've done. I need to practice my interview skills more. Esp, phone interviews.

Ah well. That's life I guess. *sigh*

Started listening to Korean music and developed a liking for Fin.K.L. or maybe it was the other way round.. I can't help it. They're so cheery and bouncy and airy. :-p My excuse is it definitely brightens up my room.

OMG. I have an interview tomorrow.. a phone interview.. I'm panicking already. What do I say?? What do I do?? What can I say? What if he hates me? What if he thinks I'm not good enough. What if I fail my exam tomorrow morning?

Right. Need to get things in perspective. Need to not fail exam tomorrow. Can worry about interview AFTER I do my exam. Never mind that my heart is racing because this is something really really want. Actaully wait I'm so scared I won't get it.. but I'm so scared I will get it. This job is scary.

Waiting is the hardest thing. I hate waiting. Especially when it's something that could be really important to me.

It's the eye of the tornado. The slight breather before the store restarts again.
Done with: two exams, one fifteen page paper and it's 2 page translation into mandarin.
Still to go: two more exams, packing and moving stuff into my new apartment for next year.
You know i wish I could just hire somebody to do all the moving for me. I don't mind moving my stuff, but moving the furniture that we're buying for the new place could be hell...
Oh and things are conspiring to put a PS2 in my hands.. a graduating friend just made me an offer to sell us his tv and PS2 as a bundle... *grin* I'm already buying his bed... I've been instructed to find out price :-p

Nearly overslept for my exam this morning... Lady J. Called me at 8.50am to check on me cause she was already in the exam room. Good thing she did. I may have missed that exam. I was going to get up at 6am to study too. Ah well.. at least it wasn't a bad exam. I got away with my pitiful amount of studying.. Now for tomorrow's exam. I still have yet to do the final draft and chinese translation of my paper that's due tomorrow.. oops.

Hmmm... I think i like the old blogger layout better.
On brighter news, I'm finally done with the first draft of my paper. Now i just have to edit it, translate and summarise in Chinese, and study for my two exams. one on wed and one on thurs..... I will be glad when thurs is over.

Have stupid 15 page paper to do which is not getting done. I have a vague idea what I want to write about but no detailed outline and 15 pages just looms at me. I HATE papers. Give me a good old exam to study for anytime.. well actually I have four of those in addition to my paper so guess what I should be doing now instead of blogging?

On another note.. trying really hard to persuade my housemates that we really should get a ps2 instead of a dvd player next year for our apartment. I'm not sure if i want to succeed. This might be detrimental to my thesis...