Hypothetically.

If you spent 4 weeks a year with your S.O., and someone suggested you leave for one of those weeks and visit someone else instead. Would you say yes?

I am so mad at two people right now - you know who you are.

Terribly behind as usual and I think the stress is starting to get to me. I just wish I had these companies done so I can take a breather but at the rate I'm going I'm not going to be able to just sit and think as soon as this is done I'm going to have to start working on the next phase.

Aaargh

THESIS DUE.. panic panic panic

My thesis is due April 15th and I'm not even done with the research much less analyzing or writing!!! This is a cause for a panic attack.

This also means that i have effectively no spring break and will not be emerging from my room for a long time. Darn why do I have classes to attend?

Easy Pasta Sauce Recipe

Ingredients:
1-2 Italian Sausages (spicy or sweet)
1 can of tomatos (I used the stewed ones which is preseasoned)
1/2 Onion
6 Mushrooms ( I use white or crimini usually)
White Wine
Thyme
Oregano

fry the onions and the mushrooms along with the sliced italian sausages until onions are clear, add drained tomatoes and fry for five-10 minutes before adding the juice that was in the can. Splash white wine to taste.

*grin* really the white wine is to even out the sweetness of the sauce and give it a little tang. But yep, cheap and easy.

Flowers make everything better. Well, not everything but at the very least, they induce a smile. :-p

Cycling between false optimism of the "It's not so bad, I can always do this over the summer" with increasing desperation and hopelessness of being trapped in a gilded cage.

Most people would kill for their companies to be sponsoring their visa. I am just so burnt out. I need a vacation. I need to go home.

The tears won't stop flowing when I'm alone but there's no one who can help. Nothing anyone can do.

I'm really upset.

I just found out that if I apply for a visa to work in the US, I'm going to have to stay here over the summer. I won't be allowed to leave the US until October when work would have long started. This is extremely upsetting. I wanted my summer back home.

*sigh* I'm not sure there's any alternatives though but seriously if I have to stay in the states for the summer I'm going to scream/cry/murder. I want to go home.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Of course, it's not like anyone actually celebrates Chinese New Year here, but I'll put on a new red blouse and walk around in nice clothing all the same.. sadly enough it's still going to be the regular schedule of classes, work and chores.

I know they said things about not using scissors or sweeping today, but no one ever said anything about doing the laundry :-p Or so my logic runs. I miss the Chinese New Year holiday. They need to give us a two-day holiday here too :-p Unfortunately, I have to turn in my math homework, so I can't even give myself a holiday. Darned.

But whatever country you may be in for now, Happy New Year :-p May this year be a good one for you.

It's official... I'm graduating.

I just refiled my concentration for International Relations confirming that yes, I am indeed done in IR and thus will be graduating... hopefully whether or not I get my Economics concentration done.

In other news, it's actually too warm today in my down coat. I mean I'm not even layering... just in a t-shirt and a coat. Wow. must be freak weather... this being providence.

Still not decided on my classes even though the deadline is tomorrow.

AND have a 100 sec reports to analyse and go through by two weeks... which is really funny in a I have to laugh or I would cry way because the sec website didn't let me download those reports the whole of yesterday because some remore server was down.

I have a ton of work and the semester has barely started. How come? Well mostly it's all due to this one thing - THESIS. Whatever happened to the let's take an easy semester idea? The thesis is proving to be more work than 3 or 4 other classes put together. The sad thing is, I still have to do the rest of my homework. *sigh* I'm shopping yet another class on tuesday in the faint hope that if I take it, my life would be easier. note the word *faint*

In other news, if anyone wants gmail accounts, email me and I'll send you an invite. I have waaay tooo many invites :-p

It's been a harder than usual first week of school here for me. Part of it is that I'm not feeling so great so having to gather up the motivation to do a whole 'nother semester of school is definitely harder than usual in face of the fact that I didn't get much winter break to play with.

Another is the necessity of having to do classes that have nothing to do with how much I'm interested in the topic but everything to do with requirements. I think I'm definitely burnt out at least where motivation is concerned - but it's hard to tell, how much of this can be blamed on the fact that I'm unwell (and would therefore go away) and how much of this is going to stay with me the whole semester.

It would be a hard semester if this goes on.

On a brighter note, the Singaporeans here are trying to organize a lecture and discussion on key issues in Singapore such as the malay dilemma, free speech and democracy in Singapore. Of course we know that we might either have to scale down the topics being discussed or it might not happen at all (to please the powers that be) but it is a start and an exciting one. More updates to come as plans on that firm up.