Going Home.

I'm leaving the US for the first time in two years in about seven hours. I haven't blogged in a while because things have been so hectic. To start with I finally took the GMATS last weekend. Taking it the last weekend before I leave was definitely cutting it a little close but although I was ready to take it the weekend before that, those plans were cut short by analyst training.

I don't have to think about work for at least a whole two weeks! (I did promise I'd check in and check email daily when I could though...) Yesterday, I went out with a whole bunch of people from work to a bar to celebrate everybody leaving on vacation and the successful outcome of standardized tests.

Incidentally... I scored a 780. The GMATs are scored cumulatively out of 800. My math score was 50 and the grammer portion was 48. Not that that means anything to anyone who hasn't taken the GMATs. I'm just so relieved that I don't have to take them again. I guess the sad thing is that singapore has probably prepared me for standardized testing. Simple skills like sitting through a 4 hour long exam has been ingrained in me through force - rendering it slightly easier for me now to do standardized tests than for most people I guess.

Now I have to decide what I want to do with my life. If I apply to business school, where do I apply? What do I study? And what the hell do I write in my essays?

Sometimes it seems like every decision I make is a decision to put off the real decision of what to do in life. Before I know it I'll be old and gray and I still won't have done anything I wanted to do with my life.

居場所

honey & clover の竹本君はｸﾘｽﾏｰｽがきらいな理由はいつもｸﾘｽﾏｰｽの時：’お前は幸せか？居場所あるか？’って感じる。今ｸﾘｽﾏｰｽの季節ではないが私そういう感じがわかる気になる。

ねえ、幸せってなに？なぜ人生の中でいろんな幸せの中から選ぶことにしかならない？

私の場合はいい仕事といい人間関係といい生活の所は全部世界の違う所だ。こうなたらどう選ぶでいいの？自分の居場所がどこか迷いってもどんなに時間かかって考えってもも答えがわからない。どんな道選んでもあと後悔するだろう。