it scares me that people can possibly think they will not be happy unless they reach a certain goal. because that means life means nothing more than that goal then. and then.. what happens to everything else. maybe we're so busy looking for a certain kind of door that we completely missed all others. sometimes it takes an earthquake to make us realise that there is more than one thing in this world. I know you won't see this but J: I hope you find your happiness someday, and I hope that soon you realise that that goal will never keep you satisfied.