maybe it's being an only child but why do you all think the world revolves around you. so tired. so tired of trying. so tired of making an effort. why aren't I just happy settling? why do I even get mad at you anymore? maybe I should just treat you like everyone else and let it go and not care anymore. maybe you should fade from friend to aquaintiance. maybe it's time for it to end. i don't know why i bother. I mean, you don't tell me anything. you don't check in with me and find out what's happening on my side. why the hell do I make all the effort.